when i'm with you, my heart does not beat. it drums and thuds and thumps until i can feel it in my feet. i walk with you everywhere and hope you can feel every ache, that you feel my blisters bubble under your skin. not so long ago, my heart was just a pump, functional, rational, steady. now, it encompasses every thought. i would like you to stay a while, the longer you are here i can be sure yours is drumming too. although, i doubt as much. while i'm drowning in the blood my heart has forgotten how to control, you are lost in your wit. i am afraid that you enjoy the idea that you have ruined the notions of my purely pumping heart instead of the idea of me. and i'm alone, i'm alone, i'm alone, i'm alone.