Alright, here is what I was trying to write yesterday.
Due to being hungry, and staying later, I had to leave before typing.
Only, the weather had other ideas, and I had to leave.
Now that I'm only here until 4:50, and my schedule is back to normal, I feel good.
So good, that I can write clearly here at this laptop.
I'm in the quiet room here at the library.
I usually sit outside where the other computers are, but not today.
There are far too many people, as all but one computer is free.
And there would be someone on either side of me.
And due to my anxiety, that would be too much for me to handle.
So I am sitting here in the quiet room, where there are a lot of laptops.
Someone just came in, but they are sitting far away from me.
Now, this is good, because it's just me and this other person.
And since it's usually a lot more crowded than this, I'm lucky.
I'm meeting with my therapist and case manager tomorrow.
So luckily, I'll probably get to talk more about stuff.
Get a handle on things going on with my anxiety levels and all.
Other than that, today is going very well.
I'm starting to realize as I write, that this is more of a public diary.
But you know what, I'm cool with that.
I'm not stating anyone's name, or any place names, and I'm only talking about myself, and being cautious of what I say.
Believe it or not, I am being private in a sense.
I'm not telling you what library I'm at, and I'm not telling you about where I go for therapy, or who I'm going to see.
All I'm saying, is that's where I'm gonna be instead tomorrow.
And unlike a week or two ago, I'm not coming here after.
That completely messes with my head, and throws off the whole schedule.
I just have to make sure that I stay here later on Friday, that's all.
And I like that, because I have things to do when I'm here.
Can't really practice Japanese here, unless it's only writing.
And that's okay, because that's what I'm starting with.
When I get the writing down, then I'll hopefully have someone to help me with speaking.
And if we do that here, it will probably be outside, or in the study room.
That's okay with me, because I really want to learn.
But honestly, I like what I'm doing right now.
Like, after I'm done writing this thing right now, I have two separate google docs stories open, and I'll work on them.
I seem to wanna alternate between these two stories lately, so I will.
Who knows, maybe I'll end up working on only one of them.
But for now, this will be fine for me.
Alright, I'm rambling now.
I'm done until Friday.
I'm gonna work on my stories now.
Bye!