I was depressed when I stepped into the L train what was more visible though was my anxiety from being a bus-girl and not avidly riding dingy. rat-infested. ***-reeking. hobo-filled. trains.
I sat right next to the most evil looking character from a beloved Disney movie. He asked me how my morning was going as he held his coffee in his left hand and a cigarette in the right. breath reeking of sadness greater than mine. such a New Yorker thing.
I told him about my friend moving away and how I was so sad I made my mom cry And then he told me about how he was sad when his friend decided not to share a cardboard box with him..and I kinda just nodded hoping he wasn’t serious.
train people are interesting so in order for Joey- yes his name was Joey- to stop talking to me I started to write about all the sweetbitter things about the train and if Joey just wanted to feel like he was relatable again..