Honestly You make me numb Like I don't know whether I should scream or cry Do I walk away? I feel like I am going to die You bring out the worst of me, dear Despite everything, even when I'm numb Even when I am colder and harder than ice You manage to break through the surface and hurt me Even through this lethargy and dull ache You hurt me so good, it aches so well And yet I just want it to stop You make me numb, but you break through it too Honestly I just wish you'd stop.
Stop acting like you care. Stop pretending I matter. Just let me go numb. Your beautiful words scatter in your absence And there's nothing I can do to protect against their sharp fragments. So just stop, why don't you? Let me go, allow me to stop feeling For anything would be better than constant aches and pains when you're not around. After all of this, our time has been short And somehow it feels as though I've known you for years. Why can't I numb myself against your smiles and laughter? Why can't I harden my heart against your soft reassurances that you care? You don't act like you do. You ignore me for days, without a single explanation or word Then pop up out of the blue, with maybe one word You don't answer me when I ask if you're okay And when I say that I'm not, You don't even bat an eye. Let's face it, dear: Even though it was never me It was always you.