His infidelity broke my mom in two, shattered our family created hate inside my heart.  This is why I chose to be alone for fear that someone would do the same to me.  Reaction formation made me fall hard twice..thinking it was forever ...each one for more than 6 years....this time I fell harder thinking I was battered enough to make the wisest choice...that God had finally sent me the ONE.... Stick it deep until the end....as you said for the Long haul.  In my eyes you are the one and if God wills it he'll help you see things right.. and realize that in every thing I told you there was and is no single lie.  I love you for protecting your fragile heart and don't blame you for breaking mine apart.... you're the one I know that ...always have....I'd rather be with Bubba than have someone else by my side if God says it can't be you....I don't know what will happen as God does work in mysterious ways often with ulterior motives