we drove around the city at 1 am
and we made up stories about the people in the car beside us
we laughed together and talked about everything under the sun

I looked out the window and closed my eyes
and put my hands out the sunroof
letting the feel of the air between by fingers take me away

and I listened attentively when you talked about her
because I was genuinely happy for you in that moment
and I was content with being your friend

when we got home we sat on your bed
and you looked at me the way you used to

and for a split second I let myself believe that there was a part of you that still wanted me

and now im back at the beginning of the healing process