I am beginning to notice my self
Destructive tendencies
I try to pretend to be okay with
How things are in my life
But gimme a second, and
Imam tell you what it’s really like
I’ve noticed my level of happiness
Constantly changes seasons like
Earth’s climate
I usually keep this private, but now
That the truth is alive, it
Has no reason to hide
Summer
Everything is cool everything is fine
My friends hit me up and I’m down to ride
At this time I’m even doing good in school
I’m motivate and driven, my
Spirit has surprisingly risen and
Ascends for the months to come
Fall
my motivation is slowly declining
I start finding things to complain about
I’m losing sight of the silver lining
I started to become lazy
I wont clean my room, or the dishes
I even notice my memory becoming hazy
Winter
Everything has fallen apart
I stopped taking care of myself
I don’t even know where to start
I feel so hopeless, and ashamed
Of what I’ve become
I feel like there’s nothing that can be done
Spring
I’m trying to turn things around
I believe I found a way
I’m no longer feeling astray
I’m starting to notice a change
In myself, no reason to complain
I realize I’m the god of my own domain
But right now I’m stuck between
Two different seasons. I’m in
the middle of winter & spring
I’m having a hard time finding
A single thing pleasin’
I’ve felt so numb to everything
Going on for so long
Now my emotions are in overdrive
They’re like a loose cannon
Ready to pulverize anything in it’s way
As my thoughts continue to
Spray and speed up, it’s almost
Impossible for me to even keep up