I pull into my driveway and my neighbor is standing in front of his door wearing a wife beater and basketball shorts that go to his mid calf with his bare feet shoved into slides that are too small and he's owned since 2005. nearly every part of him is large, except he's 5'7: his beer belly protrudes from his ribbed cotton shirt his his ego escapes from his perpetually messy house (his door is wide open, all the cold air is escaping, it smells like cigarettes and being ******* over it). he watches me park his woman (I have to set this picture, there is no better term) stands up straight at right underneath his eyebrow and glares at me in unison I let my hand trace the chair sitting on my front porch for a few seconds and wonder why I’ve never sat here before, residue rain falls from the outside banister and I feel as at home as I’ve ever felt in this stupid god forsaken ******* apartment my neighbors are still watching me and I realize it’s because they don’t recognize me because I'm really never here with the hair on my arms all standing up in unison I unlock my door and step inside drop my money and count my keys my knees are rusty, I feel small there’s only so many times you can do this and only so many times I can too