feeling this out and i might be able to write it out before its too late
and i hope i make you feel like this

trying to figure out
how i fell in love
when i was so fenced in
and thought that i was all alone

i built these walls exactly 8 feet tall  
the only one who knew the combination on the wall
the gate wouldn't open unless you broke it down  
and my tears were enough to make you drown

but then it rained
it rained so hard
i was in the pool when the thunder rung
and next the lightning,
it was all the same

i opened my eyes, i was robbed
for my walls were all gone

I saw the way you looked at me and remembered that I MUST be that small, as small as you see me!

i guess
you did help me here and there
but you brought up this and that
and the time difference set us off

but theres more to life now
and we cant figure it out
this isnt a movie
or the next episode

and im not sure if i should feel bad because i guess i didnt earn this

taking a little time to myself
hope ill find you in my process

thinking about the time
i saw the curve of your thigh  
turn into something heaven sent
but i dreamt it away
just cause i couldn't stay

and i would be with you
but i got better things to do

wondering if, i can make something so seamless turn reality into a dreamland

thats enough of the talk about it
instead of the being about it

youll never know if you dont try
and keep trying
and if you fail over and over
while people succeed the first time

maybe your just a rare breed
that will make it in time

all the words, punctuation and periods cannot describe the constant feeling of laying on my back and the hoping that i can get back up.
this lack of spine seems to be unfortunate because im not sure if i mold to everyone whose ever past by me. this bone structure doesnt seem to be fairing me while with nothing to work on except the dead weight.

but i thought i thought differently, and saw this sideways when it was right side up laying on its side