i want you to know that you are still the only one who can make my world light up with color. i can't stop thinking of the way your lips were always stained bright pink and my cheeks turn red when i picture your kisses dancing on my neck, forming figures that i never knew existed. i see blues and purples and greens when i think of your fingers on me but you're not here. how can i miss hands that were never on me to begin with? how could you have made this black and white world start to take on color when you're thousands of miles away? how could you have disappeared before i even got the chance to see the stardust that took home underneath your eyelids?