Changed

Over the past year a lot has happened

That one person I thought would never let me down, did.

I went from skipping to class with my friends, to skipping class

I’ve burned bridges without a care in the world

Used my anger as a mask to everything else

I turned away from the people who loved me

Fallen in love with the wrong people

Taken all the wrong paths

Spoken words I can’t take back

Ruined the one friendship that meant everything to me

Bottled up as much drama as I could

Watched as the people closet to me drifted away

Half-listened to the words they said

Begging me to change

Now I’m stuck in a world that hates me

I can no longer feel pain

Death doesn’t scare me

Being alone is no longer my biggest fear

But my biggest wish

Knives threaten my life each night

Friends barely keep me alive

I cry until my red eyes close.