I need…

I feel like when I talk I’m not listened to

Like every time I ask for more trust

Past events are thrown in my face

I don’t know how to control my anger

I push everybody away with my actions

I want to be trusted one day

Without my past haunting me

I want to stop pushing people away

I need to feel in control of my life

Honestly the only part I feel I can control

Is if I choose to live or die

I need more structure in my life

I need a set of rules I can follow

Sometimes I feel trapped

Like nothing I do can change

The way my life is going to be

I need that sense of belonging

In a place other then with

The other **** ups in the office

I need to take action in my life

That will actually make a difference

I know I can’t do it alone

I realize that I have to first

Give people a reason to stand by me

Or I’m never going to get anywhere.