when I say I want to run away please take me seriously when i say i feel alone please reassure me i am not lately I am trapped like a dog inside myself no love gets past this cage I don't deserve it anyways the voices yell and my doubt lends an ear when I joke this is it I'm going to leave! simply tell me don't? please, stay awhile? Wake me up to the harsh reality that people care and I am not alone. when I show up for you, and they open the door isn't that all the reassurance you need? Tell me don't be silly and ask them to chase after you because it is only your doubt that will follow
Since writing this I have begun meditating while I run and revisiting the state of mind I was in while writing this. I have come to understand my lack of trust in others, or a fretful need to feel closure, isn't necessary for a good life.