I'm in suspense, floating with no sense of anything, it feels weird yet but I can't get rid of it and gnaws on my insides without fail. I can't stop it and can't just run,  it follows me wherever I go. I start seeing my life and what has been, the good and the regrets. Every time I touch, smell even so much as glance at something, no matter how insignificant it sparks a stream of memories so long it seems infinite. I see hope tinged with despair. I see sadness in amongst joy. It feels like I'm dying yet I'm still here. What happens from here on out I don't know, and it terrifies me.