I wrote and hit send Moments after expression Filled my metaphorical tub.
I'm missing events, a chance to dress up But I take care of my body, my soul.
I wanted to ****** the red glasses on her face off I stand in holographics and faux leather Each time he would pass on through.
We toasted shot glasses of whiskey I put a sticker that said "Fragile" To my chest And reached out to him today Because I couldn't stand The feeling of boiling pain And hatred.
I said no more torture, we've both suffered enough I looked up and saw you looking I met your eyes But only for a moment Before the rest of the world interrupted us.
Your look said hello It said it's been so long Today it felt violent, troubling Full of desire Confusion And a tinge of shame.
TVs paying pink and purple swirls At least I'm not spending money Or making my body ache.
I miss having someone by my side The feeling of someone so there It comes and goes The need and wanting.
I know what it will take And a quiet exhaustion fills me up So I take steps back And rest.
It is the beginning of September I balance and lean from side to side Full of justice And a secret need of feeling self important Because what else do I have right now? I think to myself.
Tuesday night, we say I thought and plotted All around, in, and outside of it I worry about all of the steps All of the hurdles my legs Would fly right over.
Gratitude At the end of it all The gratitude can always stand And remind us of humility And a centered Self assurance No man or piece of art Paycheck Or compliment Could give us.