Don't feel
Deserving of any love
Or anyone to love me
Not even from
An invisible all loving
All knowing God
So I turn my beauty off
So no man can find me attractive
To not get or be confused
Equating *** with caring
Or genuine loving affections
Hiding far behind
The wall of a natural RBF
They claim is almost as ****
As my smile
It's so sad, I can't even see
The me in the mirror
They speak of
All I been looking at me for
My whole life
Is a drop of meaningful  love...