I guess we can consider this a toxic relationship

Where you have you the power to bless me with your shadows

Every so often

Because i allow you to re-enter the cherry blossomed gates of my universe without apology

For each and every time you’ve left me wondering

If you even still exist

I feel the stings of your inconsistency

The moment you decide to reappear

Upon my flesh

With sweet kisses of memoriam

Of that dreaded night of our introduction
Where gulps of Easy Jesus, whispered “take it Easy, Jesus,”

Yet i still chose to drown in my sins anyway

That beautiful brown clouded my vision
Led me to the scent of freshly cleansed white sheets

And four white walls

That reflect the violence that attacked my privacy
Acquainting me to the silent monster
That’s never present

Yet readily shows up for our quarterly meetings

Reminding me of

You