I watch myself go
Like flickers of light
Peaking out underneath silver moon beams
I see myself go.

Your hands in mine
Like this was the last time
The way you hugged me and said goodbye
Before you went
And so did I.

I wanted to be exactly what you wanted
Trying the cool ******* for size
Standing right by your side
The lack of transparency and honesty
Ripping and revealing the truth
I want to root for you too
But a weight lifts up off of my shoulders
As I admit to myself
I can't keep this up.

I love you dearly
I've gotten to love you so much
That I've cried to myself knowing you don't see it
Knowing you can't give yourself over to it.

A well is uncovered
A puddle reflects images of us five years from now
Maybe even three
You will be big and strong
I imagine the man you will become
Do you remember when I told you
I couldn't wait to see how you grow?

I meant it
I meant all of it
Doting and dangling me with your words
You haven't maintained me well
I have felt neglected
I have felt ignored
I tried to duck and get out of the way
To give you space to be at your best.

I wear a cape in my mind
I wear a cape and my hair grows long again
With strength, with abundance, with waves.

I don't think you will call tonight
I don't feel like you ever really call


I just wanted to be your person
Can't you see me
Can't you see me
I'm right here.