Dear L,

i fell in love unintentionally
i didnt plan it
i didnt want it
it just happened

it was no mistake
you make me feel some kind of way
that i cannot explain
im comfortable around you
you are good for me
the way you are

and still
i love you

i am so sorry
for what will be
for all the sadness i will
put us through

i am drained
for our love is wrong in so many ways
it doesnt feel like it
and it shouldnt be wrong
and yet
it still is

do you understand that
i just want to be happy
and i just want you
to be happy
but both wont work

I didnt want to have to choose
i didnt want that
i just wanted to follow
my heart
to see where it will take me
i didnt want to have to
choose

this will be the saddest
i have ever gone through


i love you so much
it hurts