Shut up and listen.
I am writing in this dark place where I can barely see and I just wanted  to tell you that I miss you and I still love you. Not to sound cheesy but I still care about you. I am so sorry  for leaving you. I... I could have just stayed and taken the risk.. But... all I was thinking about was myself and not how you will feel. I am sorry. You may hate me soo much. I spite because you despise me. I will endure this unbearable punishment I bestowed upon myself.  I just wanted to say I love you. I can do everyday without you but it is painful and tiring. I can't seem to fathom myself not thinking about you. I might not seem like that anytime I see you. Still.... Don't judge a book by it's cover. I love you....