1 she laughs and walks and calls a stranger daddy and never sees her biological father who cares 2 the terrible twos 3 she puts An Apple down the toilet 4 she is a big sister and a younger sister and a middle child and has many half siblings and her family is complicated 5 she is enlisted into the education system and she is touched by her cousin her own age 6 she struggles with holding hands and crayons 7 she is nicknamed by the older kids and she cannot remember how to spell or how to write the letters the right way 8 she has failed 1st grade but she has fought back against those who have labeled her 9 she has gotten better grades yet she is miserable 10 she is so excited to be double digits and no one comes to her birthday party but her bestie 11 she has grades and a few friends and the jerks in her grade matter less 12 tech is amazing but the boys ruin it and so she frowns 13 her bestie has left and she roams the friend groups 14 her dog from birth has died and she starting to realize she is sad all the time and has been 15 she has been smoking and circulating groups 16 she is driving and she has two groups shelf friends but they hate each other and she has grades and she has already tried to die 3 times 17 4 *** partners later she finds her love of her life 18 high school to college and her hopes of something better was crushed 19 she has yet to tackle her self diagnosed depression
Maybe the reasons people wait so long to successfully **** themselves is because somewhere deep down we hope we will be “happy” for an extremist period of time, or we hope for success. And once you get to a certain age you stop hoping because you feel you life has already happened and passed you by so what is the hope and success to look forward to now? Once you have reached success what happiness is there to look forward too? The hope is lost and boom, you find a solution to the lack of hope.