It’s a blank white slate with the entirety of human achievement inside of it A way to talk to billions, to drown myself in enough entertainment to make me sick It’s an echo chamber It’s an echo chamber Each night I scream into these walls Beating myself into a vagus nerve induced frenzy Slap these thighs and pull out wiry hair Snap my fingers, my rough knuckles dancing as blows rain down Like so many rainy days locked away Seething meat blasted into oblivion Because you have to do it don’t you? Despite all the words All the reassurances that you aren’t a liar You want to do it You want to think you want to do it You are so confused Cut the meat Punch the beef It’s an echo chamber With occasional melodies belting out from underneath the door frame Little moments when you collapse No beauty in the death of the ugly ways A cracked ceramic mask Made by a kindergartner Because I never learned how to paint my face I never learned any language other than man It’s not a matter of how I feel It’s a matter of can I always feel this way It’s a matter of whether or not I’m still riding on the echoes of a voice that only brings to mind the haziest of memories It’s a matter of who looks back at me in this prison, this room Who will greet me in my nightmares tonight? Who will look back at me in the mirror? When did those stop being two sides of the same coin? I pound and beat and mash pale flesh against the steamed surface Please, take me out of this two way hell This two time place