we were only seventeen
when your eyes first met mine
so bright and so green
and mine so so wide

you drove with your windows down,
just a little too reckless
and you always laughed
when I screamed
that you went too fast

you were long blonde hair
laughing out of the car window
and into the night sky
like stars pouring into the heavens up high

you were long conversations
that stretched far into the morning
and when I asked you what you wanted
you told me to stop worrying-
that you liked me-
so wasn't knowing that enough?

you told me that I was crazy
but that's what you loved about me
you stroked my face
but you didn't mean to touch my heart

just like you didn't mean to leave,
it wasn't ever your choice

sometimes I wish that I could wonder
just how you're doing
but you're not here
you can't come back