I closed my eyes Saw myself riddled in fear Confused of what just happened And in a tearful state of emotions.
I went out of the vehicle composed Trying not to crack my nervousness To hide the trace of guilt And conceal the crime that I had done.
Yes, I am now a criminal I have murdered my innocence, My reputation and pride I gave in to the temptation
I killed that thin membrane That was slowly tearing down The wall that separates my innocence And the world of lust that I tried to hide
It was a brief 30 minutes of getting through And pulling back out. I thought I had him His actions showed.
He's neither reluctant nor hesitant He's sitting there like he wants to So I slowly took initiative aware of people around
I reached for the crotch Now fall back again And again And again
I watched his expressions But he had nothing And Finally I reached my heaven Only to be snapped by his elbow and legs
I pulled myself back Confused And nervous.
Didn't he liked it He never said anything Nor had he changed position To show he doesn't want it
I was sorry for myself Sorry for him I thought of the person that I had become A criminal that is punishable by law
And then it hit me. If this guy confesses on public I'd be done for I can go to jail
Then I thought of possible ways To get through out of the accusations Tonnes of it come to mind And then i thought again
What happened to me The old me wouldn't run from the problem Cause I know I was to be blamed Of the mistake I did knowingly
And so I reached the destination Nervous of what this guy might do to me For he was snapping his fingers, and switching positions on the rest of the ride
I took my scary step out of the vehicle The warm air of July felt like chills And I watched him walk through the side I stride as composed and fast as I can away.
I hired a cab towards my destination But the ride was still meters away I am scared of what might he do Of those possible things
He can order an arrest warrant, A wanted poster Asked the van line for a ban Or worse plan for a revenge
Everything was so scary And stupid And messy And until now I can't stop thinking
I killed my innocence and now Its revenge is slowly creeping Lurking out there Ready to strike
Don't judge me. This is the main reason why I joined HP to express myself in ways I can't in real life. I can't share this problem to anyone.