i sat
       in my room
       in complete isolation
      
i know
       the attack
       is coming again

but there
       she was, standing
       a face covered by hair

i felt
       numbness started to fade
       and now im about to burst

her cry--
       the loudest of all the silent cries--
       broke my heart
      
finally, i shed
       my unwept tears of eons
       twas when i felt alive