I hope one day
He realizes .
That I didn’t do anything
To get broken hearted.
Recognizes how many times
He’s made me Cry .
Times I cut my wrists & Got high
Risking my life
To an actual death.
Why did he cause pain .
Even after expressing to him
How depressed I am.

It hurts
So **** much .
To be told to ****
When I have tear drops.
Never once has he made me feel ok & better .

My life ...
I hate it more than ever .
I cry so much more .
These tears are real
I’m so close to just giving my self to The Skies
I can’t bare this Sadness
Any longer .
Suicidal thoughts have been coming faster and staying longer.
When will I truly give in
To ending My life .

God , please hear me.
I’ve been Sad for so long .
Suicides been In my head since I was young .
I’m now older ‘
Alone In my thoughts
Im losing my mind.
I have nobody in this world
I’m hopeless
Many people have made recognize how worthless & pathetic
I truly am.


I’m hurt so hurt I can’t even explain anymore
God please listen,
I’m desperate to smile
To laugh , enjoy life.
I’m desperate for happiness
Please god i cry to you
Give me strength to change
up my life :(