my father has never been my dad he was too busy making a living for us that it almost felt like he wasnt living with us
hed work all day long and hed rest up all night he gave us money and he gives us glances he even taught me how to cook so i can dependent less
i never knew he loved me and i thought that was somehow my fault i was alwas a closed book, an abrupt pause, a halt
but earlier he said something that caught me off gaurd something so mundane yet sounded so new he asked me if charles dickens an author i knew
from where im from, i have to scavenge for books of old id be lucky as hell if i found a book of classics, like austen and i really have bad luck in finding them often
but here is my father, who i never knew was my dad holding the tale of two cities like it wasnt a piece of my soul like it didnt burn him like it did to me, like embers of coal
i was speechless and thankful and flustered all the same i told him i loved him but it came out as thanks dad he smiled and nodded as if this book wasnt his affection i never had
me getting emotional bec i never knew my dad listens to my rants to my sisters about the books i wanted and i honestly felt like crying when he handed me a worn out and probably preowned book. but it felt better than getting a brand new one. it felt better than getting twelve brand new ones. i felt like coming home for the first time.