Supervening once again, I'm agitated, unsettled, Suspecting to be taken by it: The madness, insanity, instability But - Mostly just the hurt, And wonder, discomfort from the lacking.
It steals me Yet I can never take ahold of it, It leaves me confused, crying and abandoned once more, It never resists, Success this has against me As I am held hostage.
Where am I? In my mind which I can't empty. I guess at least, This way I'm inflicting this sorrow on myself, So in a twisted way I'm in control, Except I'm not:
Because I don't always want to run and hide - Well actually I do, most of the time, But I want this to be true Or to be capable of staying in reality. What I'm doing is a messed up thing, Because whilst escaping real life I bring those painful situations, Back into my world of comfort, Just so I can battle with them some more.
If this is some type of war, I think I'll die fighting, And no one will be winning, As I'm the only enemy.