Fitting rooms and cracked cocoons, White lights and expected frights. Procedure: avoid the mirror. use your eyes. Don’t think about which better lies. Clothes on, clothes off, You already know enough is enough. Clothes on, clothes off. Don’t think about how it looks, but how it feels, How you feel is how you look. Lights off, clothes picked, of course, door sealed.
Thinking: it’s not enough just to feel It’s more than enough to proceed. If the lights are too dim you can’t see at all If the lights are too white you’d rather not see. You already know enough is enough.
So: for now we’re okay with a limited view, Yes, we can’t see ourselves but no one else can too. But I’m just about done with enough is enough. Maybe someday it’ll be more than enough.
Written as somebody still in the process of healing.