It rains on Tuesdays
I wore my new jeans
My new hat.

A magical weekend
I drank a lot of champagne
At night I feel like I did as a young teen
It's suddenly 9pm
And I feel like A sugary snack
Awake and interested in
Meeting the moon
Now that it has finally grown to be
Quiet.

I have days and moments
Where I deeply miss what it means to have a partner
Someone that wants to check on you
Hear your voice
See your face
Regularly
Someone who wants to comfort
And someone who wants to be comforted by you
I'll think about how that all takes time
To get to that space
To meet that person
To get to that time.

I'm a fan of my own company
Sometimes I see myself very clearly
I coach myself in the morning
I think back on how I once valued all of that more
A cup of coffee
Not a huge rush out the door
I can talk myself through anything.

I miss a lot of things lately
Having a partner
The cleanliness of my old apartment
Philadelphia
Alabama
Art school
Old friends
Acting
Money
Sleep
Sunshine
Energy
Vienna
Adventure
Love.­

I'm a little bit sensitive today
I feel like I need some care.