My smile masks a thousand lies
one thousand lies hidden behind my bellowing laugh
A laugh that fades when your eyes cast away
Your eyes fail to notice my darkness leaking out
My darkness is translucent but swallows me whole like tar
I’m drowning but I continue to live
Living while suffering while pretending is a battle
A battle I can’t confess because I fear to disappoint you
You’re disappointed I didn’t speak up
I can’t speak up or out or talk about my demons
My demons are choking me while my brain betrays me
You feel betrayed while staring at my corpse
I stare back blankly with a smile on my face.