You are a revelation 
A saint, a sinner-a definition 
Of an angel with evil 
Ways of a good devil 
Part of me hates you 
And repulse the way I love you   

A lover dependent on the unknown 
Unknown, unnamed as you    

You lightened up my life 
And you lower me down- I strife  Lifting me high 
You let me down – to fall 

You are a city 
Whose ways are wicked 
You blame yourself 
And only praise yourself   

  I am all twisted and turned  Tuned, shaped- undefined
And  inaudible

My mind thinks 
What my body cannot link 
to my heart that doesn’t trust  What my soul thinks it must    

And a sense of absence 
An absence of sense 
A sense of meaning 
Of living or staying 
have I given in too much 
To give up ?
Or
Tamed to be dominated?