you were my secret
my late night thoughts
my hidden glances
his hands were on my body but i only felt your absence
heartache is unexplainable when you trap words inside your stomach
digest them and oppress them
become an empty void of unsaid apologies
i never wanted to swallow you
or this
or us
but you became my secret
you became my what ifs
and my second guesses
i allowed everyones opinions to fill the void you left
kept my eyes opened when he kissed me so i wouldnt see you
you have been my nothing for so long
yet somehow still my everything
and i want so badly to undo it
to go back to captured moments with the two of us smiling
i crave nothing but your lips
and your time
and you
so please
grab my hand and trust this one last time
jump head first into something thats already broken the both of us
and lets hope it mends the both of us
please
just give this one last chance
and i promise to love you with everything in me