When I say "I'm scared of falling in love"
What I really mean is that
I'm terrified that my shining eyes will betray people who reach
For a glittering diamond heart
And instead cut their hands on broken glass.
That they will leave me,
Thinking I am not worth being scarred for.
I am scared of people
Who will press their cookie-cutter expectations against me
And leave me trying to mold myself
Back into the girl I vaguely remember being.
When I say "I'm scared of falling in love,"
I'm saying that I am scared of imprints remaining
While memory-foam hearts forget me.
So I guess I'm not scared of falling in love,
But of what will happen when I hit the ground...
Of inevitable pain.