my therapist brought up a huge concept that i never realized that every relationship was a rescue mission. he rescued me from home another he rescued me from him she rescued me from him and then he rescued me from my fear which then bit me and i tried to rescue myself and then i hurt everyone involved and she rescued me from my roommates and he then rescued me from them again always a pattern of rescue, catch, release a circular motion that revolves around my inability to see my own self-worth and that i can actually rescue myself. but i've been looking for someone to pick me up for so long that i cannot feel love without that. how sad. how abnormal. where does it stem from? this idea that ... do i need rescuing? no... but here i am.