i'm craving
feigning, misbehaving
driven by lust
recalling their touch, temptation
their words, actions
manipulation
the way i am careless
i am even more dangerous
as my lovers' lips part
writhing, i am prepared for the breaking of my heart
as they ******, my insecurities fade
i see them around, they look the other way
one after another, i'm always left ashamed
lover after lover, romanticizing my pain