I got anger, anxiety, & depression sitting right next to me
reaching out to an old love but she refuses to text me
I could never let someone know exactly what I’m thinking
take a trip thru my mind just to see how it’s depressing
Loneliness, heartbreak, pain, & depression mixed with alcohol
fading in & out of anxiety just waiting until the day I fall
It’s been almost a lifetime since I remember being happy
always full of tears, can’t recall a moment of me truly smiling
Can’t let a woman into my heart without pushing her away
cause I’m afraid that if I love her for real then she won’t bother to stay
Flying thru my thoughts & can’t seem to find a place to land
but there’s no need for you love me cause my mind you won’t understand
Family telling me to cool out before I lose my mind & go insane
feeling like it won’t be long before I take a gun to blow my brains
Side note, I think I found someone who really wants to see my smile
& I’m too afraid to let her love me cause that real love hasn’t been felt in a while

☆ Poetic Venom ☆