I remember the day we said goodbye I think about it all the time Spending those last two hours with you Staring at the clock As if I could will the minutes not to pass As if each second didn't bring the inevitable that much closer I felt all the words I didn't know how to say sinking to my stomach All the times I thought about begging you not to go All the wars I knew I would lose I remember staring at you for too long because I knew eventually I would forget the details of your face The dimples on your cheeks, the smile that filled your entire face, the eyes that made me weak and the laugh that brought me to my knees I knew I would soon forget these things Not by choice Not like one day you wake up and just can't remember anymore It's much more cruel than that It's every morning you wake up and feel a little bit farther away The memory of you feels even farther out of reach And you try, You try like you wouldn't believe I try to force feed myself the memories from that day The cold winter wind making our noses numb, Our fingers intertwining, Your hand anchoring itself to my waist But that was months ago And some days I don't know how we got here Some days you feel so ******* far away Some days I don't leave our bed because everything hurts too bad But every day I love you more than the last And I miss you more than most