we had been drinking
your mother's pinot grigio;
it was my first time.
i was inexperienced,
or something.
but when you kissed me
was it consensual
if we were both drunk?
when i was drunk and tired and
unable to think and
too weak to push you away?
thinking back, i didn't want it.
i cried in your bathroom,
actually.
but since you're a friend
that
  couldn't
   have
    been
     assault
      right?
i feel *****, and guilty,
and nauseous,
but not from the hangover.