F* this *****
In reality I hate this
But he shall never know How much exactly
It hurts this time.
How could I let myself fall
Why did I let myself fall so deep into someone I barely know.
It doesn’t make sense.
It never seems to, why this, why now?
What was it about him?
Why does this seem to make so much sense yet the timing does not. Maybe I am wrong, but when I’m with him it feels exactly right.
Everything, his smell, his touch, his smile, his eyes that tell me so much more.
It’s there, I know it, I feel it, I’m not crazy.
But This is crazy.
This is more real than anything I’ve ever come across, much more.
And I was meant to touch him, just as he Was meant to touch me.
I can’t shut this door, not completely, so I will leave it cracked, just so I can check in and see my love every now and then.
to make sure he’s okay, and that he still thinks of me as I think of him.
I never told you I loved you
And again the possibilities are endless, just like the love we never got to build or express.
And yet maybe one day.