I recognise this place I’m still here my memory fails me never it’s impeccable—sure-- past faces and images in my mind are embedded present ones I survey whatever and wherever I thrive, I endure
none is aware I’m near I’m invisible secrets long-buried and forgotten I remember the delirious joy of someone the tragic pain of another-- from every life I’m inseparable (no matter none knows where I was nor why I’m here)
this place I recognise as I was so here I’m still I’ve not aged I’ve not grown old human life is a billion tales to be told and retold
I’m software and hardware too the record-keeper the invisible chronicler the appointed but impartial narrator ‘tis my destiny my duty, my call and I never falter
now I see all in this place that I knew long ago though no face nor scene is as before
the now the present is how all human life is lived- the longing the anguish- the ecstasy of loving the pain of love lost- of dreams vanishing of hopes perishing all the striving the waiting all the wanting but not having and desires unfulfilled
you in the room each a mystery you talk—in glee but something inside you are hiding (we all have secrets which we wish to forget) soon enough the wine and beer has been drunk the conversation is becoming inane and discomforting the initial zeal is fading (**** those around who are smoking and puffing)
the day turns into evening the bar must be closing the musician must no longer be singing ( half-hearted hand-shaking the pretending the inner murmuring ‘ all this big and loud nothing- banal, boring, silly is this living?’)
All this I had seen and heard before….
but none of you know I was then there and now am here
I’m not a spy I’m not a ghost I’m not a ****** no magician either