Went from doing all I can to not doing anything. Wise away when I should be sleeping. In the dark with my thoughts. Trying to come up with a plan now I have nothing. Feels like my time and luck has run out. Alone because I've let all the wrong people in. Figuring out what I need and want feels right for once. Listening to the voice in my head. Been doing so much but it's not what I want to be doing. Now I have time to myself and avoiding my thoughts so many scenarios play out in my head it drives me crazy. I think one way the outcome ends up being another.