I mumble the words I want them to hear Yet don’t I wrap my hands over my chest in attempt to protect it From what I don’t know I say okay but I don’t want to Nothing was ever simple I found myself in the corner cowering I realize ive been there for too long I look up at the sky and I get overwhelmed at how big the world really was And I understand why I confine myself In the safety of my dark room Because I could never fail if I don’t try No one loves the sad girl So im not sad will you love me If I reach out my hand I could almost feel you yet I know you’re way too far I don’t really believe them when they say im pretty Because I know every stretch mark, acne scar, rash, dark spor there is on my body And as much as I try to romanticize my flaws I hate them And I feel ugly I hate my birthday I hate growing old because im scared of being alone forever Being sad forever And not sad that I cry alot But sad that I occasionally cry but most of the time im just laying in bed staring at the ceiling feeling completely empty I love you but I like you but You’re amazing but You’re funny but You’re nice but You’re pretty but You’re not her Just as a friend She’s so much better It gets old You can be such a ***** You’re fat