Silent phone calls and broken promises
You beg me to speak
What am I supposed to say
There is nothing left for me here
A love too fast and too strong
It crumpled under itself
Like a deck of cards in the wind
I will get an apology from you
You say you are never coming back
I get a phone call an hour later
It is too late then
I have already learned how to live without you
I fill up parts of myself that you have left alone
I am not angry at you
Nor sad
I am hopeless
I am tired
Reminiscing has broken me down
Our future we built
Was nothing but a pretty text
Never in writing
You wanted someone who would grow up with you
You did not actually want me
You did not pursue me
Maybe I gave myself away too easy
But it is clear to me why so many people have left you now
You **** on your teeth so you don't yell
You beat your steering wheel
So your hands will not find my body
You should have curled your toes
Or bit your tongue
What you said cannot be pulled back in
We are past tense
One day you will return to me
For right now, I am the wind
And you are the beach I am blowing past
You needed me
I wanted you
You expect me to cry for your return
Saying "You do not care like you used to"
I force myself to cry
Crocodile tears