i held your hand, felt the indentations in your skin, traced along veins and thumbed the bristled hairs on your forearms i never noticed how soft your skin was by nature, how you exist numb to the universe around you, hairs aligning conveniently to guard your irreparable tissue, eyes hollowing toward your skull, sinking in deeper with every interrupted breath
b r e a t h i n g you let the air escape your lungs as our hands grasp hold of each other inhale, exhale, r e l e a s e as your hand embraces gravity and lies lifeless and cold, i was the only one holding us together how long have you been gone?
it's not my fault i had to let go i had to let go i had to i had to i had to