I sleep but feel my conscious self still awake.
I don't know what is going with me
But I feel more sad than before.
I shed tears of pain.
The pain that went through me by the years of my life.
I'm holding on the edge
But I don't know how long I can keep myself up.
As I let the pain feel through me,
I am shedding the tears that I kept in way to long.
I know today will be heavy on me.
I feel this day will the heaviest than the last three years of this date has passed.
Only because I am growing and feeling more of my pain that before.
Feeling the heartbreak of words and actions of myself and those threw at me.
I am losing my grip.
Encouragement. Self esteem. Happiness.
My mind feels like to let go and get myself together.
It's time to let go.
No matter how much the pain will hurt,
I need to let go.
I will share myself to those who see and feel every inch of me.
I will go on and do my dream.
I will let this pain push to greater things once the tears pass and I soak in this day of her.
I will cry. I will let it out. I cannot hold it anymore.
It's time to be on my own. Time to start me and actually be happy. I don't need others for happiness.
I will let this day to shed every inch of pain then no more until its true feelings of what I feel.
I will live this memory of you.
I will learn to let go.
I am strong.
I am done.
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