The static wraps itself around my throat like silver wires Beating on themselves to force out a ****** tune Simply to write a score To scorn my troubled mind Scorching my self hate on the dotted line
For truly pain is a watermark none can hide away on this marred canvas that is I. Stained and plastered in confused brush strokes of youth. As if to truly define the meaningless The adoration for something I'd never feel.
No, no veins weren't drained in vain of life and left to wilt on the window sill
yet still I'd claw into myself and search for a world I can Capture on film To have a choice whether to corrupt or delete Or drown itself in whiskey and car horns
Reverberating it's cords And their fingertips Across fifty shades of cracks Guiding my hands Clearing my mind Starting once more
I am a piece of work Incomplete
I am okay at the moment, and besides some unhealthy stimming from the time when I was righting this, I haven't tried hurting myself. Instead I was focusing on putting my feelings down like the ink to my pen to try and cope with it in a healthy(er) manner.