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May 2018
hi, i live a wonderful life
smiles all around me
but i could have died twice
hidden things under my eyelids
that nobody else sees,
grimy thoughts collect in wastebaskets
but i still move like the breeze
always smile at the old ladies
on my way out of church
even if smiling at a time like this
makes my effing stomach lurch
oh, i'm happy, sure
got lots of blessings in my pockets
took my meds this morning,
i'm feeling just fine;
still seems a little plastic to me
these bright smiles, even real ones
that i hand out like newsletters
saying "i'm so joyful, not depressed!"
even when people ask i say that:
lying through those pearly whites
maybe twisting the truth a bit
to fit the social standard.
i am so joyful, true enough
even if smiles feel like lies sometimes.
real talk: i'd hit rock bottom twice in my short life.
i'm a-okay now. but it's still surreal sometimes.
i love smiling, i love those old ladies.
but it is still weird on days where i'm not okay
and i'm so trained to smile and seem happy
even if i'm literally falling to pieces :)

if you don't read italian, the title means:
"smiles are always in fashion", something my nonna would always say.

p.s. sorry for the rhyme failure, lol
liz
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