Tidal wave after tidal wave
The pain rushes over me like water
And I'm scared
Because you know my worst fear is drowning
But I'm drowning in you
In your brown eyes
That once held so much love for me
But now they're empty
My arms that once held you
Now only hold onto the hope that maybe
Just maybe
You won't leave
I pushed you away
Yes
But now that I'm broken
Now that you see
Can't you tell how bad I wanted us
Because I did
I do
But maybe we were never meant to be
Or maybe God is ashamed of me
Because I'm thinking with my head
Not my heart
Because my head's a little ****** up
Actually a lot
But my heart's always been broken
So I'm left to wonder
Did I ever have a chance
Were we ever really meant to last
Or was this just some sick joke the universe pulled for laughs
Because I'm not laughing
No
I'm crying
Because losing you should be the last thing I'd have to go through
Because I love you
I love you so much
But I need help
I need to get better
Because if not
You'll be visiting my grave
Not me
It's like some old wise *** once said
"Some people die at 25 and aren't buried until they're 70"
Well I died at 6
Fast forward 10 years
I'm still waiting
I'm still waiting