I've been living my life without you for so long
that I can't seem to remember
what it feels like to have you here.
Sometimes I forget you even exist,
not that you're no longer alive,
but I forget that you were legitimatley ever here at all,
but I always seem to remember you
here and there.
I'd like to think this life would be easier with you here,
to help me through the days like these,
to tell me that I'm important,
to make me feel there's a meaning to this,
all of this,
any of this.
You are the reason I can never bring myself to say
any of those words
I always wish I would've heard from you.